Life goes on

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      I'm sorry that it's been almost a week since I've posted, but we had a death in the extended family. That's partly why I titled this post as "Life Goes On", because life does go on after death. That doesn't mean that you don't deal with the grief or any other emotion you have. How I came up with this saying is when I was struggling with suicidal thoughts throughout middle school and I used it to help me get away from those thoughts. The whole saying is "Life goes on, I'll stand strong" and I made the word "Life" into an acronym which states "Living, I feel everything". I would say that I was very emotionally immature throughout middle school and high school because I would just about let every little thing bother me. My sixth grade English teacher even yelled at me for crying in the hallway when we switched classes, but she didn't once ask me why I was crying and it was because I thought a kid was laughing at me for bumping my head on the desk. The world turns and doesn't stop to ask us how we feel, that's why we need to figure out our emotions and let them serve their purpose and move on. I know it's hard when you grieve, but you can either choose to let grief overtake you and make you angry or you can take grief by the balls and turn it into joy. But if you are angry with grief, don't hold onto it and let that shit go. 


      I know someone who has lost person after person and it's almost like they choose to live in a depression state, but their parents never really taught them how to deal with their emotions except for the parents either partying or getting drunk non-stop while they left the kids at home. If it wasn't that, it was using work to cope with emotions which is equally as bad. When you're young and told to suck up your emotions to go to work, it makes for poor life choices as an adult. Then when you make poor life choices, you get sent to jail or rehab only for the system to be shit which perpetuates an almost endless cycle of PTSD and not wanting to trust anyone because there isn't anyone to trust. Personally, I deal with my emotions and seek help when I need it, but I too have experienced that there are those who will use your downfall for their gain. I don't know what else to say on this subject, so I will sign off. Love you guys.



                          -Liz


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