Awakening to the Call: Finding My Voice Where Others Refuse to Listen

 Hello Readers,

 

Living in a time where everyone seems content with what they’re doing or even sure of what they want to do is really daunting when there’s a lot of options. There is also the lengthy process of weighing the pros and cons of choosing what to do that proves just as difficult. For me, it’s these two combined with knowing that whatever I wanted to do needed to fit me and my whole personality while giving me the confidence to keep doing it.

 

Finding my calling and my purpose has been difficult because I never genuinely believed in myself. This is partially due to Imposter Syndrome and me believing that everyone is better than me. While it is worth noting that there are people better than me at writing, it does not negate the fact that my voice is worth hearing. Sometimes I feel silenced by others who talk over me and other times I silence my own self because the people I aim to talk to are imposing as heck. It finally took me realizing that if I want to be a writer and let it be my calling that I need to fully embody it.

 

The thing is, not only do I have to fully embrace being a writer. I also need to learn how to become myself without caring about other’s feedback. Everyone has some version of me in their heads and I have my own version of me, and deconstructing that is equally difficult. I have to learn how to be braver and bolder with my words, learn that I deserve to have my voice heard and presence seen, and not regret a single thing about it. I should not have to bend to another person’s version of myself when I know who I am.

 

The song that comes to mind that describes this realization is a song that I learned in chorus while in High School is called “The Awakening” by Joseph M. Martin. The lyrics of the song bring into focus that if everyone remains prideful, nothing would be truly beautiful. Plants would die, no choirs or birds singing, tears would fall like rain. If we wake ourselves up and realize that being ourselves while being humble makes for a much better world. With all this being said, I aim to be a writer without putting anyone down, I aim to bring joy to everyone that I can reach. I refuse to let silence reign and I refuse to let the little person remain voiceless.

 

-Liz

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