Liz Writes: The Blog

 Hello Readers, I am not sure how deep I am going to go with this post but I am allowing myself to be seen regardless of where this goes. I have hidden myself for so long that I don’t fully know what it means to be seen. It seemed that every time I outgrew my shell, and ventured out to be social-able, that I didn’t truly know what was going on. It felt like I was stuck in the past or a time loop, like I was always blindsided, but I won’t allow that to happen again.  I’ve lived for the happiness of others for so long, and it got me nowhere, so I am here to tell you that doing what I am doing, becoming who I am meant to be, is what makes me happy. I care about people and want to spread hope, shine the light within me and be myself, because doing that means the world would be a better place.  It also reminds me that for me to gain something new through the new moon phase, I must let go of something equally important. So, I chose to release sheltering myself, letting go of my...

  Hello Readers,   Living in a time where everyone seems content with what they’re doing or even sure of what they want to do is really daunting when there’s a lot of options. There is also the lengthy process of weighing the pros and cons of choosing what to do that proves just as difficult. For me, it’s these two combined with knowing that whatever I wanted to do needed to fit me and my whole personality while giving me the confidence to keep doing it.   Finding my calling and my purpose has been difficult because I never genuinely believed in myself. This is partially due to Imposter Syndrome and me believing that everyone is better than me. While it is worth noting that there are people better than me at writing, it does not negate the fact that my voice is worth hearing. Sometimes I feel silenced by others who talk over me and other times I silence my own self because the people I aim to talk to are imposing as heck. It finally took me realizing that if I wan...

 Hello Readers,    In 8 days, it will have been a year since my last post, and a lot of things have changed. As of now, the words "This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius" echoes and rings through my mind as I can't deny my own self anymore. On February 2nd of this year, I lost my mom to pneumonia and COPD plus a lot of other health issues. While her death was pretty sudden, I can't say that it wasn't unexpected as she had the same health scare two years ago, but it was her time this year. The good thing is that my little family and I were able to see her at Christmas.    On another note, we left from the Augusta area as we blew through the insurance money from the camper fire and are now living with some of my family. This is something my fiancé's "good Christian family" couldn't afford to do it and as my previous post made clear that there was a major falling out. Not only that, but the last two people we trusted betrayed us by not even aski...

Hi Readers, Sorry to have been absent for so long, but a lot things have happened since the last time I posted. At the time, I was working a gas station job but the manager was becoming increasingly hostile towards me. That caused me to have lots of anxiety for the job and there was a lot of drama going on there too. Then on Easter Sunday, my family lost our camper to an electrical fire. We lost everything in it including our cats. I know that I posted this on my Facebook page, but I finally worked up the courage to post here. One thing that is causing me to worry me right now is the fact that my fiancé went back into the camper to save the cats and got hurt in the process. It didn’t get told to me until now when it’s been a full year since he fell at his last job and got a concussion. He’s now struggling with his back due to his sciatic nerve on top of his head and I have to take care of him so he doesn’t strain himself and become paralyzed. Along with his injuries, he’s struggling me...

 Hello Readers.       Yesterday was another rest day for me, and I did enjoy some family time. I took the time to do some financial stuff and went outside to play with my child. I kind of got back into gaming a little bit with my Switch and hopefully I will get back into reading soon. Right now, my favorite game on my Switch is WorldNeverland - Elnea Kingdom and Skyrim. The first game is an almost simpler version of Skyrim, but it's also more colorful. In Skyrim, I am a level 21 Dark Elf and I just completed the thieves guild questline. Prior to completing that questline, I completed the College of Winterhold questline but I'm not sure what I want to do after that. I have a bunch of quests that I need to do, especially the Greybeard's quests since I have a few dragon souls and shouts built up but can't use. I also play lots of Pokémon and I've been neglecting my animal crossing games too. But I'm going to sign off so I can try to finish chapter 2 of my book.  ...

 Hello Readers!       Sorry for not posting yesterday, I really needed the rest even though I really didn't.  Work has really taken a toll on me as if you haven't been reading my posts, but I do have a good point to mention. In two weeks, I will be shifting from nights full time to being the floater person who works both days and nights. This offers me a variety like what I had at Marshall's but in a full-time position. This is because I am more reliable to do the floater position and the lady that is taking the night shift needs to be at home more during the day due to her kids. I am equally glad for this because it eases my worries over money because if someone calls out, I can take over the shift if I am able to. But hopefully, my reliability and need for money doesn't conflict each other. Yet, I don't think that it will because I have gotten good and listening to my body and for the few weeks where I had six to nine or ten days straight has shown me how much...