Delving into things

 Hello Readers,


      Yesterday's post was a bit intense, mostly for me, but I feel like continuing with the intensity is what's best for now. As I mentioned yesterday, two of my special interests are reading and writing. They go hand in hand as the one of the only ways to improve writing is to read a lot. I was encouraged to read as a child, but I don't remember reading too much until after 5th grade when we moved to back to my hometown. Middle school was peak reading season when I found myself reading book series such as "The Children of the Red King" series and eventually "The Hunger Games". I got in trouble in school for reading books not designated for the class during class and I was also given the option to take a book home for a project and completely ignored the project. I don't really remember the project options or the title of the book but it was based during the times of slavery near Savannah and Augusta, Ga. I remember liking the beginning of the book and how it described two characters trekking or swimming around some of the inlets and sandy areas where it's beachy near Savannah. It was nowhere near the intensity of what I expect Alex Haley's Roots to be given that I've only watched the miniseries that came from the book. I absolutely hate that slavery was a thing, and racism is still prevalent to this day, but I feel like changes are coming in the future.


      My main focus for this post is the growing popularity of female centered books where we follow the female protagonist through hell and back. With The Hunger Games being the first series that ensnared me, I heavily aligned myself with Katniss because I came from a low-income family and I was burned as a child. Side note, no I haven't finished the prequel that I bought back in 2020 which should have been finished back then but thanks to losing interest in it I procrastinated. I would have finished it by now, but due to the unfortunate circumstances of me not being able to hold on to the tradition of seeing the movie the Saturday after it released, I put reading it off due to the sheer disappointment. I know how it ends but I will finish it. Getting back on subject, the second series that I read that followed the script of The Hunger Games was the Divergent series and I didn't get around to reading it until 10th grade. My flaw is that I like to know how many chapters there are in a book so I may have found out about the ending of the third book and never finished it because I was so close to the end. This only disappointed me and other fans when the movie came out. These two series are what I read through middle and high school and I ventured from slightly from the dystopian books but not much.


      Most of what I read is either fantasy or dystopian, with sci-fi sprinkled in, and I feel like dystopian type books should be it's own label entirely. If anyone wants to correct me on which genre dystopian books belong to, I won't fuss, but it's a little hard for me to specifically classify it because it doesn't have to fit the mold of one specific genre. But with most of the books that I have read that is female centered, it has become more evident that they aren't fairytales, and I can't always expect my life to change overnight to be like them. It takes a lot of turmoil, hard work and self-realization in order to surpass my troubles. It's especially hard for me because I really don't know who I am at my core. Sure I can describe myself as a mom, writer, significant other, daughter and survivor but there's also emotions and other possible suppressed memories that factor into who I am. That's what's for me because I've had to push my own emotions down and hide my struggles because I never really knew how to get help due to me being trusting and not wanting to stir the pot. I've also struggled with oversharing and being too friendly so I kind of had to start becoming reclusive because this stuff is frowned upon in little girls. Plus with the trauma of being pushed around by kids YOUNGER than me and the same age as me, I just never really saw the point of getting out of my shell. Is this what the autism community deems masking?


      Things like this hurt me trying to explain, and it's the world I've built around me, that's why I guess I took a liking to writing and reading to help me. So for now, I'll stop sharing about my thoughts and lose myself in a book I'm currently reading. Love you guys!


                  -Liz

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